nope.

I don't know what to think of this day.. 

It was pretty bad. My first day was actually horrible!!! 

1. My friend and I didn't end up in the same class. 
2. I don't know anyone in my new class. 
3. Almost everyone know each other and have it easy to talk.
4. I know one girl but she doesn't talk to me. 
5. I'm alone in this class.
6. Everyone have their head in their ass. 
7. I hope that in time I will be friends with someone and not hate them. 

Ugh I really want to forget this day and hope tomorrow turns out better. ( Little do I know it wont bc I have to do a maths test bc they want to know how good you are and blah blah and I DON'T REMEMBER A SHIT!!!!!!!!! OH FUCK. ) 

Last day

Sunday.

Last day of my summer break.

I can't believe that it's over, that I'm going to a new school. 

New people.

I'm so nervous and I don't want to wake up tomorrow and thinking: 

I have to go to school now.

The stress I feel. 

I'm scared.

Scared of not getting any friends, scared of being alone.

I hope it turns out good.

Gonna write about my first day tomorrow. ugh wish me good luck. Peace!  

Let The Pictures Speak

Let the pictures speak. 

Uhm, so yeah hi? Where have I been? 

Well I've spent time with friends, family and my laptop (mostly laptop). 

It's 6 days left, and then I start school again.. Happy? No totally not...

Can't summer break last for forever?

I wish..

I need to fix my sleeping this week.

Bye!  

The Vamps - Can We Dance

I remember when they put put their first cover and 

how I fell in love. I remember how they

told Connor to be a member in the band. 

And now, they have a single, a vevo account, verified on twitter. 

My bbys <3 

New in

I bought some new stuff this week and I've used half of the work money to nothing. Or it feels like nothing.. I need some stuff to school too. Ugh why do things have to be expensive?

The first thing I bought was this backpack from H&M! Good for 

school and I just think it's really nice looking. 

 And the second is two shirts. From H&M too! 

I like the black one more. 

Yeah and then I bought some socks which I don't think is necessary to take a picture of! 

Peace! 

(ps. yes it's my pictures.)

 

loner

I have this period ( I get them tooo often ugh) where I isolate myself. I don't answer at text messages, calls etc. I don't talk with my friends (not as much as usual). I haven't seen them in a long time. I'm just isolating myself and drifting apart with everyone. I'm drifting apart with everyone and what am I doing? Just watching it continue. I want to text/call them and ask them how they are. I want to make plans with them. I have so much anxiety about this right now. I'm drifting apart from them but I really miss them and I care so much about them. I want them to know it. I want to tell them that I'm not isolating myself on purpose.. I can't do so much about it honestly.  I'm alone, A Loner. 

It's so frustrating.. I've been a loner for my entire life, but this (times like this) it's different in a way. 

I don't know, I just needed these words out. I needed to write them down. Now you know why I haven't blogged so much.. It's because I'm isolating myself, it's because I'm stressed and nervous about something

I can't put my finger on.

I'm meeting Lua today, which is good, I've missed her heaps! 

And I'm meeting Elvira on the 8th! I've missed her so much too! 

I need to get my shit together.

I ship us.

I ship us so flipping much. 

And if you're wondering that's MY bby Calum Hood from 5 seconds of summer. 

AAAAAANNNDD I'm tired bc it's 7 in the morning now and I haven't got any sleep, I'm sad bc my 

iphone charger broke but I'm gonna buy a new one today!!! 

peace.