Nothing

I've tried to write for like 100 times this hour. But nothing. I can't get my toughts in to words. 

I'm really tired and I have got a cold. No appetite. 

Nothing. 

I will write more when I have some motivation and when I start to get better. Farewell for now. :) 

Hello September

It's already September. 4 months left from this year. How?
It feels like a week is a day, if you know what I mean?

So I've seen This is us and I can only say that I'm so proud of the boys and I cried like a 2 months old baby!! They are my superheroes, I can't explain why.

It's Monday tomorrow a new week of school. I really don't want to go, I really want to stay in my room. I don't feel alright there I don't feel comfortable there... I need to talk to my maths teacher because guess who is lost in maths again? me! Bye!

Idk

I had one crappy lesson today, and it was maths and it was at 13 pm!!

So it was a nice morning!

I'm in this happy mood right now, it might be because I'm gonna see this is us tomorrow?

I really have no idea but I like it and I'm not letting it go haha!

Soooo I have a maths test tomorrow, and yeah I hope it will go good ( I know it wont but Idc).

I'm trying to study some maths, like reading all the notes I've done and so.

Btw, one of the words/sentence I've been using so much is IDK.
and if you don't know idk means I don't know! hahaa
 

my life. <3 

Bye!!  

You know I'm ready to leave

Let's start with that I'm already tired of school. (ok I was it like first day??) 

But really, so so so tired. But on the good side I have found some people to talk to from my class.

I mean almost everyone is easy to talk to but you know we all have those people we just don't like, and me being me bad at making friends... What ever the important thing is that now I have people to talk to.

  

On another topic..

I've lust to just pack my bag and just go to another country. I'm kinda ready to leave Sweden now. 

I just want to be done with school so I can move to UK. 

I'm kind of in a happy mode now so I'm gonna enjoy it wile it lasts :) 

Dead walking zombie

How have my first week of school been?

Well good and bad, I don't want to talk about school so much

bc it's a boring subject and it just makes me sad! 

I met up with Lua, we talked about

everything.. So nice to meet her actually!

Tbh I miss seeing my friends faces in the weeks, they like made the day

easier, well now I just have to make new friends hah.. (it's not working.)

I'm going to stay up all night because I want to see the VMA'S!  

I will be a dead walking zombie tomorrow, feels good! ;)  

"speed dating"

So, second day. well it went better than yesterday but still blah! 

I have more friends in my friends class than in my OWN class!! 

I want to switch classes to hers' but if I do everything will feel awkward so idk what do 

doooooooo!!!! :(

But we had "speed dating" (I know wtf?!) with the students and now it feels

like I know some of them more but oh some girls have their head so far up 

in their ass!! 

We got our lockers today and what have I done to desurve all this bad luck?? 

I got under locker!! Ugh who will get back problems? ME ME ME! 

 And the schema for this week and next week is so weird, I don't get a shit, like where is that classroom? How do I go to it and what subject is it even???

And tbh I think my mentors is lost in the head. 

yay to me and my luck. :) 

Peace! 

nope.

I don't know what to think of this day.. 

It was pretty bad. My first day was actually horrible!!! 

1. My friend and I didn't end up in the same class. 
2. I don't know anyone in my new class. 
3. Almost everyone know each other and have it easy to talk.
4. I know one girl but she doesn't talk to me. 
5. I'm alone in this class.
6. Everyone have their head in their ass. 
7. I hope that in time I will be friends with someone and not hate them. 

Ugh I really want to forget this day and hope tomorrow turns out better. ( Little do I know it wont bc I have to do a maths test bc they want to know how good you are and blah blah and I DON'T REMEMBER A SHIT!!!!!!!!! OH FUCK. ) 

Last day

Sunday.

Last day of my summer break.

I can't believe that it's over, that I'm going to a new school. 

New people.

I'm so nervous and I don't want to wake up tomorrow and thinking: 

I have to go to school now.

The stress I feel. 

I'm scared.

Scared of not getting any friends, scared of being alone.

I hope it turns out good.

Gonna write about my first day tomorrow. ugh wish me good luck. Peace!  

Let The Pictures Speak

Let the pictures speak. 

Uhm, so yeah hi? Where have I been? 

Well I've spent time with friends, family and my laptop (mostly laptop). 

It's 6 days left, and then I start school again.. Happy? No totally not...

Can't summer break last for forever?

I wish..

I need to fix my sleeping this week.

Bye!  

The Vamps - Can We Dance

I remember when they put put their first cover and 

how I fell in love. I remember how they

told Connor to be a member in the band. 

And now, they have a single, a vevo account, verified on twitter. 

My bbys <3 

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I bought some new stuff this week and I've used half of the work money to nothing. Or it feels like nothing.. I need some stuff to school too. Ugh why do things have to be expensive?

The first thing I bought was this backpack from H&M! Good for 

school and I just think it's really nice looking. 

 And the second is two shirts. From H&M too! 

I like the black one more. 

Yeah and then I bought some socks which I don't think is necessary to take a picture of! 

Peace! 

(ps. yes it's my pictures.)

 

loner

I have this period ( I get them tooo often ugh) where I isolate myself. I don't answer at text messages, calls etc. I don't talk with my friends (not as much as usual). I haven't seen them in a long time. I'm just isolating myself and drifting apart with everyone. I'm drifting apart with everyone and what am I doing? Just watching it continue. I want to text/call them and ask them how they are. I want to make plans with them. I have so much anxiety about this right now. I'm drifting apart from them but I really miss them and I care so much about them. I want them to know it. I want to tell them that I'm not isolating myself on purpose.. I can't do so much about it honestly.  I'm alone, A Loner. 

It's so frustrating.. I've been a loner for my entire life, but this (times like this) it's different in a way. 

I don't know, I just needed these words out. I needed to write them down. Now you know why I haven't blogged so much.. It's because I'm isolating myself, it's because I'm stressed and nervous about something

I can't put my finger on.

I'm meeting Lua today, which is good, I've missed her heaps! 

And I'm meeting Elvira on the 8th! I've missed her so much too! 

I need to get my shit together.

I ship us.

I ship us so flipping much. 

And if you're wondering that's MY bby Calum Hood from 5 seconds of summer. 

AAAAAANNNDD I'm tired bc it's 7 in the morning now and I haven't got any sleep, I'm sad bc my 

iphone charger broke but I'm gonna buy a new one today!!! 

peace. 

Ellie Goulding - Burn

We can light it up up up
So they cant put it out out out
We can light it up up up
So they cant put it out out out
We can light it up up up
So they cant put it out out out
We can light it up up up
 So they cant put it out out out.

Happy Birthday Big Bro

You are my Role Model,
You are my Hero in Life,
You are my Everything,
And most of all..
You are my over protective brother that I love with my whole heart,
I follow your footsteps that will lead me to a successful way of life...
i love you big brother.

Kinda cheesy for me, but yeah the poem is good and it's basically true haha! Yeah happy birthday to my big brother that is 30 years now. oldie ;) haha Peace!  

12 Random "Facts" About Me.

1. I'm a messy person. 
2. I break almost everything.
3. I'm really clumsy ^.
4. I can't go a day without listening to music, I wake up, music I eat music I'm about to sleep music.
5. I like being in my room alone on Tumblr than go out and socialite. 
6. I quite often shut myself out when someone talks to me so they have to repeat what they said. 
7. I'm a good listener if it's like a friend talking to me about a problem I DO listen. 
8. I hate how I look, yes I'm insecure.. 
9. I love London, I haven't been there but it's my city in a way. I see my future there (if I have one..).
10.  I love reading books than seeing the movie. Ok I like both but when you read the book it just idk how to explain this but I love reading. 
11. I've never ever in  my life read or seen a Harry Potter book/movie. I've actually seen one movie and I kinda hated myself after it. My class made me see it and omg I hated it. Sorry... 
12. I've been wearing glasses sense I was 6 or 7 years old. 

cutiepie

Hi cutiepie! 

Haha nice "hello phrase". Hmm, well I can start of by telling you that my luck sucks balls. 

I dropped my Iphone on the sidewalk and poff I've cracked the screen. The whole back screen is cracked I think you know that, and now the front screen is it too! 

The cracks is on the keyboard so it's kinda annoying tbh! 

I got my job moneys yesterday so now I have money. Thinking of saving some of it. Yeah 23 days and the summer is over for me. With that I mean that schools starts in 23 days. I'm nervous but at the same time exited. I mean it's a new school, new people, everything is gonna be new!!!  Haha. I have to buy some school stuff later in August.  

Have a great night, day what ever time it is at your place! it's 21.30 pm here. :) Peace! 

Wings

*they made me think of you, they made me think of you* 

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so this is the stuff I've spent all my money on. and a black skirt but didn't take a pic of it. 

that "pen" is a liquid eyeliner that is amazing!! :) peace! 

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